A Realization

Another drunken hook up. Happens all the time. Except this time, my friends knew you. When I told them who you were, all they said was “That bastard!” obviously, I knew something was wrong. Well yea, it was. You have a girlfriend. Who you lavaliered. Well surprise to me! Since that night, I’ve noticed a trend in my life. I have unknowingly hooked up with at least three guys with girlfriends, possibly more, and have had three tell me that they would want to be with me if they weren’t with their current girlfriend. Seriously? I was friends with all three of them before they started dating someone. What makes me so much better now? Why am I so date-able now but I wasn’t before? it disgusts me that people can do such horrible things and be okay with it. I hate how they make me feel, even though I know it’s not my fault. I hate that their girlfriends probably have no idea about it and they are living blissfully, still dating an asshole thinking they are the greatest gift on the planet. I wish guys could be decent human beings at least some of the time, but recently, I’m finding it harder and harder to believe there are true gentlemen anymore.

Okay Honestly

I just know you’re obsessed with girls and that you probably want everyone. I’m the fucking idiot for thinking that you may have thought differently about me, fuck no you don’t because you really don’t have feelings for me and I can see that now.

It’s so sad that I even thought that I actually had a chance with you and that maybe I actually meant something to you.

You would be calling me right now or at least trying to get into contact with me, which you’re not. It’s a sign from the universe to move one. That’s what I’m going to do. 

Tears on my Bloody Guitar

I feel so bad cause I’m falling for you. I know you might be breaking up with her but that just makes me feel worse! I want to be with you all the time but I know you need space and stuff… Oh I don’t know! You are just so cool and we get along well and you didn’t even freak out when you found out. I want you to feel the same way about me but mostly I just want you to be happy. If being with Laura is ultimately best for you do it! I just hope we can stay friends for a long time.